So, tomorrow is it. I know this is what everyone says..but I can't believe it's here. I feel like I've had no time to prepare even though I have. Friday Mom took me shopping for some soft food that I will hopefully be able to eat when I get home from the hospital. We also got the things on the supply list that I came up with.
Here is the list of supplies that we bought:
- Bed buddy
- Fiber supplement
- gauze
- band aids
- humidifier
- Ibuprofen
- Mederma (because there will be incisions on the sides of my neck..I don't want noticeable scars)
- Neosporin (also for the neck incisions)
- Kleenex
- baby toothbrush
I think that is everything. I'm hoping I got everything I needed. We couldn't find a jaw bra..so I'm really hoping that they provide one at the hospital..otherwise we'll have to order one offline.
Today I mainly just tried to not think about the surgery. I went to church with my family this morning, and afterwards we went to eat where I order an appetizer tray with all of the crunchiest appetizers, haha. Then, I went to see Les Miserables with my brother. It was absolutely amazing. I'm really glad we decided to go see it, because I'm not sure when I'll feel up to going to the movies again. Of course, by the time we got home my nerves had kicked in again. We have to be at the hospital by 5 am, and since it is about an hour away from my house we'll be leaving around 3:30. Originally, I planned to go to bed really early tonight, but now I'm so keyed up and anxious that I don't think there is any way that I can sleep. I'm just naturally a worrier. I get anxious about everything, and I worry constantly. So, every minute that I wait I think about more things to worry about. I know I'm probably playing all of this up too much in my head, but I can't help it. I worry that it's going to be worse than I think it will be, and that I can't handle it. I'm really trying to calm down..I'm just not having any luck. I guess it's probably a good thing that the surgery is so early in the morning. I would be losing my mind if I had to wait much longer.
Oh well, I guess what it comes down to is that there is no going back now. All I can do is move forward..so thats what I'm going to do. I don't know how long I'll be in the hospital, but I'm taking my laptop and will try to post pictures and updates as soon as I'm able. I would appreciate anyone who reads this blog saying a prayer for me tomorrow. I'll see everyone on the other side :)
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