Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Day 44

Finally saw a dermatologist today to try to figure out what is going on with my skin. My surgeon had said that it looked like rosacea, but luckily my dermatologist disagreed. Dr. B (dermatologist) said that he thinks it is probably an allergic reaction to something from surgery..like anything they used on my face when prepping me or some of the medicine they gave me after. He thinks it has hung around this long, because it keeps getting re-irritated..the allergic reaction added with the swelling, extra oil, and general stress of surgery caused my skin to be hyper-sensitive and the allergic reaction couldn't heal. All of that makes sense, so I'm really hoping he's right. Anyway, he gave me a steroid pack that I'm supposed to take for 6 days along with some topical steroid cream to put directly on the bad areas of my face. He said that if he's right it should clear up pretty quickly. So, I'm really praying he's right! I'm so sick of my face being broken out, red, and splotchy. Plus it itches and burns every time I go outside for any amount of time. Very annoying. So, here's hoping my dermatologist knows what he is talking about.

In other news I have my second orthodontist appointment tomorrow. I'm thinking he's going to do some actual adjusting tomorrow. So, I'm kind of worried that I'm going to be in pain tomorrow :/ No pain, no gain I guess.

I had a pretty weird experience today. I haven't been getting out a lot since surgery except for when I have to. For the most part I've only seen family and close friends, but today when I was waiting for the elevator to see my dermatologist I saw a girl I had several classes with in college. So, we saw each other several times a week for a few semesters. Anyway, I saw her and immediately waved and started talking to her. Only, after a minute I realized that she was looking at me weird as if she didn't know who I was. It took her a few minutes before finally she said, "Oh! It's you! You look like a completely different person!" Obviously, she didn't know I had jaw surgery. So, I explained it to her, but it was just so weird for me. She is the first person I have had react that way, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I definitely didn't set out to look like a different person, and that isn't exactly a compliment. So, I really don't know how to take it. I'm sure this isn't going to be the last time I have an experience like this. I'm just wondering how to cope with it. I'm not in a place where I like the way I look. So it was just kind of jarring. I wish I knew other people who had gone through this, because no one around me really understands what it feels like. I think I'll feel better about these kinds of things once I feel more comfortable with the new look. Like everything else, it'll just take a while I guess.

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